i honestly dont know what will happen. Things are different. I dont know what to do, what to say, how to behave. I used to be a girlfriend, soulmate and a best friend. I do not know what shall i do to help you. I feel im failing in everything. And being quiet doesnt help. . And with today´s news i really dont know. The only thing i know is the more i tried to be who you want, the more i failed. So the best thing is to be quiet as well till the inevitable happens
There are few times when i wish i had someone that could say "I want to listen to you". Things even get more tough when you have someone in your life who cant give you that kind of attention because my problems compared to his are absolutely crap, boring and pointless. Besides, being far away doesnt help. And its complicated when you feel the distance is being more than physical. somehow its turning into an emotional distance. I can only hope and wait for everything to grow. Maybe things are not as strong as i thought and feel or maybe its a matter of time and possibly if we meet more times we could know and figure out if this is something to build a future.
Sometimes i still think we are a secret. Sometimes im not used to call you more than a friend to people because im scared. Sometimes i still think your feelings are not for the right reasons. Sometimes i still think im not the one you want, im the one you have. But sometimes im so damn sure we are soulmates and made for each other. Sometimes i know we´ll grow old together! Day by day learning.
Today, when i was coming home, an old couple was sitting in front of me. They were in their 70 and while they were chatting and laughing about everyday stuff and their own stuff they were holding hands. It was one of the most sweet, beautiful scenes i´ve ever seen. The way they looked to each other was filled with love, tenderness. You could tell they´ve known each other all their lives! It was such a touching moment, i´ll never forget!