In my researchs and readings i found something interesting. At some point, someone explained there are 3 kinds of love.
So, aparently there is love that lasts for 2 months, big love that lasts 2 years and great love which is the one who changes our lives. It also said, when we cant have or lost our great love, something inside of us die and after a while, we close that chapter. Hopefully we might find the second great love or we can find love and big love but never another great one. I dont know if its true but it was nice to read this practical views.
Instead of wanting to go back in time, i need to face the present like a woman. I still think i´ll ruin everything unless i kill all my demons. The cruel truth is, im not sure if i´ll be able to do that ever. All i know is how unfair this is for both of us, specially for you! It got me thinking..im a good, caring, understanding friend but im definately a looser as a girlfriend. At least im good in one thing :)